fuck you all, all die bitches.

decided to take a shot at nl 200. i duno if its the pressure or what, i lost a stack TT vs. KK on an all undercard board. I went to tilt at bj. lost 700 in like 1 minute....so I stopped. down 1k to begin the day, how great...came back, regrouped, played a solid 1.5k hand session and won back $500. awesome. decided to do another session at night and things went completely downhill. flush over flush, medium two into top two, gettin flopped set like no other, gettin check-raised every other hand and have ppl show me crazy bluffs. fuck fuck fuck....i was 4 tabling 100 n 1 tabled 200, before i kno it, i'm down 1k at the 200 table...fukin crazy. AA lost to a flopped straight with 86o.....FUCK YOU! and i can't believe sh flopped a set on me. completely unexpected that board looked pretty darn good for myhand......bankroll at 6350 yesterday..now at 4702. FUCK! shit that's like what....at 1.6k downswing....sigh...i didn't really tilt that badly though, i think i managed myself pretty well at the poker tables and dind't really let tilt get to me. I really think that wen u are just plainly running bad then you should become less aggressive. especially with my style......

i'm usually not a superstitious guy. but i havta agree with zen and art of poker, "luck comes in bunches" at least this is true for me. sometimes when i'm running hot, nothing can go wrong, and wen i run bad, the exact oppsite happens. I don't want to fall into like, oh I have AA this guy check raise me on a 7 9 T board he must the nut straight i'm gona fold. thats' just palying scared poker and i won't let that happen. however, i'm talking about making marginal plays. like marginal bluffs, or value bets. i think it might be better for me to check down more mediocre hands that I would normally value bet and probably give ppl a little bit more credit...cuz apparently when i run bad and look up ppl they always show me a strong hand, or something that has me......

the poker road is a tough road to take. sometimes things come easy, but when the going gets tough, there is absolutely nothing that is more frustrating....I needa fucking work on my game. oh, and i'm going to stop taking shots at 200 for now. i'm gona practice more at 100. probably get in anohter 20-30k hands and maybe expand to 6 tabling while improving at my game. i'll be working on making better reads and better betting pattern. i will decide to take a shot when my UB roll hits 8k, or more safe 10k. we'll see. btw, i fucking hate poker, did i mention that?!

fuck you ppl who took 15% of my roll today. its just a loan remember that.