Played 4.5k hands today. i'm still down though. down $474. not very happpy about it
i'm not even sure how i was down 2 buy ins. it sure didn't feel like it. i didn't really get into a lot of big pots as i played pretty goot solid. i guess i lost a lota races all in preflop etc. nothing really bad going there. i feel like i played fine today. probably can be a little bit better. but with 4.5k hands in a day, i think this is alright
i really focused on not paying ppl off today and it worked well to an extent. i folded some hands where i felt like i was beat and those were the spots that i'd call before. i guess i'll also a bit of a calling station by nature because i just don't like to give people credit but i think today i was able to force myself to pitch my hand when i felt like i was behind.
achieve silver star status today. pretty fast lol. if i play a ton tomorrow i might be able to hit gold star tomorrow lol.
7484 VPP to go for platinum
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Sunday, April 22, 2007
DICE-K!
first of all, a-rod's got nothing on dice k. 2 at bat, 2 strikeout, SANSHIN!!
well anyways haven't been playing that much poker. decided to give stars a try today and frankly i'm pretty impressed. the 'fast' tables are just as fast as ub tables so 5 tabling those i can get the same number of hands per hour in. on top of that i think the competition is not as bad as ub to be honest. much less aggressive so less headache lol. the vip points also add up pretty damn quickly. i was pretty surprised. i'm going to shoot to make platinum star by april 30th.
lets see.....9547 more points to go for platinum star. i think its doable. i played 1k hands today and already got in about 500 points. so all i really need is 20k hands. gona try
first couple of hands in i got this hand....lol probably not the best way to start off at a site...
http://www.pokerhand.org/?1026163
unfortunate yes, but what can you do. sklansky bucks lol shit
Saturday, April 21, 2007
I need to update more....
So the big incident happened a few days ago. many of you guys knew. yes it was very unfortunate, but you just gota take responsibilities for your own actions and believe me as I say this, that I haven't been feeling so good in the past few days...
needless to say it was a lot of money lost but where you fall down is where you stand up. i'm going to stand up and become even stronger. i'm just going to learn from this and become even better
i've just been thinking about the mental aspect of the game a lot lately. I think good mentality and personal discipline/emotional control is SOOOO key in succeeding in poker. I cannot begin to stress how important it is. to an extent i think it might even be more important than being ridiculously good at hand reading. take 2 for example:
stu ungar: arguably the best poker player ever lived. he was great, he could read hands like they were open books, he won a ton of money from poker.....then what? blow it all on drugs and table games?
good solid tag: obv not the best player in the game. not even close. but he understands the game, play it well, and has tremendous discipline, mental toughness, no tilt, does not play house games and does not do drugs. result: much steadier results =$$ and probably a happier life
my point is that you do not need to be the best hand reader in the world to become a winning player in poker. simply put, if you can understand the game well and play accordingly and not let your emotions carry you away, you're already way ahead of the pack. lets take basketball as an example. kwame brown. one of the most hyped players coming out of high school. had jordan sweatin him like he's the next shaq. this kids got size, talent, youth but what does he lack??! mental toughness and work ethic.....result? huge disappointment....
how about ben wallace? how about brad miller? each of them undrafted coming out of college. they did not have nearly as enough talents as kwame combined, but they work hard, have mental toughness and both are much more successful than kwame right now
i'm not here to brag or whatever, but i think i can read hands better than most people. i think my understanding for the fundamentals of the game is solid but it can improve but i think i lack emotional control, i lack discipline. i'm not going to lie. that's my biggest weakness and i know it. so i'm really trying to work on it. i think if i can overcome that, i'll be well on my way.....
some of the stuff i want to be doing:
1. 5 buy in stop loss (hard stop loss no exceptions) for the day
2. obviously no house games or chasing losses/ playing higher stakes etc
3. if i lose a cooler hand or make a bad play, take a moment to re evluate my mental state. if not so good, walk away.
4. really start to focus and not rush things
5. don't take winnings for granted
6. treat money like money outside of poker
So the big incident happened a few days ago. many of you guys knew. yes it was very unfortunate, but you just gota take responsibilities for your own actions and believe me as I say this, that I haven't been feeling so good in the past few days...
needless to say it was a lot of money lost but where you fall down is where you stand up. i'm going to stand up and become even stronger. i'm just going to learn from this and become even better
i've just been thinking about the mental aspect of the game a lot lately. I think good mentality and personal discipline/emotional control is SOOOO key in succeeding in poker. I cannot begin to stress how important it is. to an extent i think it might even be more important than being ridiculously good at hand reading. take 2 for example:
stu ungar: arguably the best poker player ever lived. he was great, he could read hands like they were open books, he won a ton of money from poker.....then what? blow it all on drugs and table games?
good solid tag: obv not the best player in the game. not even close. but he understands the game, play it well, and has tremendous discipline, mental toughness, no tilt, does not play house games and does not do drugs. result: much steadier results =$$ and probably a happier life
my point is that you do not need to be the best hand reader in the world to become a winning player in poker. simply put, if you can understand the game well and play accordingly and not let your emotions carry you away, you're already way ahead of the pack. lets take basketball as an example. kwame brown. one of the most hyped players coming out of high school. had jordan sweatin him like he's the next shaq. this kids got size, talent, youth but what does he lack??! mental toughness and work ethic.....result? huge disappointment....
how about ben wallace? how about brad miller? each of them undrafted coming out of college. they did not have nearly as enough talents as kwame combined, but they work hard, have mental toughness and both are much more successful than kwame right now
i'm not here to brag or whatever, but i think i can read hands better than most people. i think my understanding for the fundamentals of the game is solid but it can improve but i think i lack emotional control, i lack discipline. i'm not going to lie. that's my biggest weakness and i know it. so i'm really trying to work on it. i think if i can overcome that, i'll be well on my way.....
some of the stuff i want to be doing:
1. 5 buy in stop loss (hard stop loss no exceptions) for the day
2. obviously no house games or chasing losses/ playing higher stakes etc
3. if i lose a cooler hand or make a bad play, take a moment to re evluate my mental state. if not so good, walk away.
4. really start to focus and not rush things
5. don't take winnings for granted
6. treat money like money outside of poker
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Monday, April 09, 2007
TAKE RESPONSIBILITIES FOR YOUR OWN ACTIONS:
I'm not sure where I should start this entry. At the moment I am extremely disappointed at myself. I'm going to be flat out honest and say yes I played some blackjack today and the results are very bad, as expected. I am so disappointed at myself I do not know where to begin....
I started off having a pretty bad day at the 2-4 tables. Losing 6 buy ins in about 1k hands. I did not play my A game and I did not run particularly well. I'm not here to bitch about how I didn't not hit a hand while the donks hit just about every other hand. I did not play my A game anyway. I made some bad decisions and played poorly and my results have shown. I'm not sure why I was totally steaming at that point and did not walk away from the computer or other stuff like I said I would do. I was down 2.4k and I thought, hey why don't I go play some blackjack, bet 500 a hand and tryta win back 1k. sounds easy right? well sometimes you may do it, but like me today, I couldn't and that was the start of the disaster....
instead of winning 1k and leaving, i quickly lost my initial 1k buy in surrendering 16 twice to face cards and lost 1 hand. boohoo right? my gambling addicted brain decides to play some more and try to win back the 1k I just lost and I said ok fine I'll just take -6 buy ins but at least give me my 1k back. Before I knew, I was down 16k!!!!!!! from betting 500 a hand. It was the max. I assure you that if it wasn't the max, I would've increased it to whatever the max was. That's what kind of gambling mode my brain was in. Once in a long while my brain would go on this mega tilt and its really so hard to stop myself. I had that feeling of fuck I'm going to go busto again and it felt SOOO terrible. Its like one of those end of the world feeling and obviously at the point I have surpassed the threshold of misery....
I was this close to having a mental breakdown and go crazy and cry out loud but what am I going to be pissed about? what am I going to cry about? that I've lost money? NO! but the fact that I've again made this same mistake while I was so sure before that I would not do this ever again. I somehow made it back to be just down 6.5k from blackjack. Quiet a comeback yeah, but still extremely damaging to my bankroll. But I must say it could've been a lot worse. I, at one point, pondered if I should sit at a 50-100 game and try to win 1 buy in so I can get even, but my state of mind right then would certainly lead me to be down ANOTHER 10k if not more. Last hand of blackjack I doubled 11 against a dealer's face and said to myself if i lose this hand i'm going to stop, i hit 19 but dealer draws to 20....for 1k. so i lost, and i really really really wanted to win that money back and said ok fine 1 more hand. but at the point, I forced myself to stop and said to myself "you are lucky to win some back, leave now!"
so I stopped, but i lost 9k today. extremely extremely damaging to my bankroll. not to the busto scale, but 9k is a huge chunk of money to just blow away. needless to say I'm beyond pissed right now and frustrated, but I really have no one to blame but myself. I feel very ashamed to post this on a public blog but I do think that I need to be honest to myself and I guess shame myself as a punishment. I talked to Brendan K and offered my 1k I promised I would give him, but he turned it down being the nice guy he is. I was debating whether to be honest and tell him about it and ship him the 1k or not, but at the end I knew I need to be honest to myself and improve. I would've insta shipped the 1k to him if he insisted. I guess right now I'm going to value money much more than I did before. I think quickly winning so much money led me to de value money as a whole. It is said that if poker players treat money like money they cannot do well and they need to treat it as chips. Very true statement but I think you still need to have a certain value for money or else you start to spew like me....
Brendan K suggested a hard stop loss rule for the day and I think that's something I will start to implement. Before I always thought yeah whatever I'll decide if I am playing well or not at that moment but I think for now, I need to have a stop loss. The stop loss will be set at 5 buy ins which is 2k. No matter how many hands I've played, no many how I lost the 2k, and no matter if I'm playing the best poker of my life and the tables is full of the biggest fishes alive, I'm going to stop. Its a principle, a rule, and one that I will follow religiously from now on until I can become much more stable about accepting losses.
so today i'm writing this entry as an honest reflection of myself and also to apologize to everyone who has looked up to my poker game. I made a mistake and I know as an instructor, my actions will be followed by many. I assure you guys that this is one action that you do not want to follow. Learn from my mistake. I'm only human so I make mistakes sometimes but I'm not afraid to admit it. If for any reasons you feel like I'm no longer the instructor you guys are looking for, feel free to tell me that and I will refund your prepaid money (if you have any) immediately no questions asked. I just think that being a teacher/instructor, I cannot be showing bad examples and I did, and I sincerely apologize
don't worry about the 9k I lost, I can swallow it. but if you read this, please either give your harshest criticism or some nice words for encouragement. and maybe a viable punishment for my stupid brain
I'm not sure where I should start this entry. At the moment I am extremely disappointed at myself. I'm going to be flat out honest and say yes I played some blackjack today and the results are very bad, as expected. I am so disappointed at myself I do not know where to begin....
I started off having a pretty bad day at the 2-4 tables. Losing 6 buy ins in about 1k hands. I did not play my A game and I did not run particularly well. I'm not here to bitch about how I didn't not hit a hand while the donks hit just about every other hand. I did not play my A game anyway. I made some bad decisions and played poorly and my results have shown. I'm not sure why I was totally steaming at that point and did not walk away from the computer or other stuff like I said I would do. I was down 2.4k and I thought, hey why don't I go play some blackjack, bet 500 a hand and tryta win back 1k. sounds easy right? well sometimes you may do it, but like me today, I couldn't and that was the start of the disaster....
instead of winning 1k and leaving, i quickly lost my initial 1k buy in surrendering 16 twice to face cards and lost 1 hand. boohoo right? my gambling addicted brain decides to play some more and try to win back the 1k I just lost and I said ok fine I'll just take -6 buy ins but at least give me my 1k back. Before I knew, I was down 16k!!!!!!! from betting 500 a hand. It was the max. I assure you that if it wasn't the max, I would've increased it to whatever the max was. That's what kind of gambling mode my brain was in. Once in a long while my brain would go on this mega tilt and its really so hard to stop myself. I had that feeling of fuck I'm going to go busto again and it felt SOOO terrible. Its like one of those end of the world feeling and obviously at the point I have surpassed the threshold of misery....
I was this close to having a mental breakdown and go crazy and cry out loud but what am I going to be pissed about? what am I going to cry about? that I've lost money? NO! but the fact that I've again made this same mistake while I was so sure before that I would not do this ever again. I somehow made it back to be just down 6.5k from blackjack. Quiet a comeback yeah, but still extremely damaging to my bankroll. But I must say it could've been a lot worse. I, at one point, pondered if I should sit at a 50-100 game and try to win 1 buy in so I can get even, but my state of mind right then would certainly lead me to be down ANOTHER 10k if not more. Last hand of blackjack I doubled 11 against a dealer's face and said to myself if i lose this hand i'm going to stop, i hit 19 but dealer draws to 20....for 1k. so i lost, and i really really really wanted to win that money back and said ok fine 1 more hand. but at the point, I forced myself to stop and said to myself "you are lucky to win some back, leave now!"
so I stopped, but i lost 9k today. extremely extremely damaging to my bankroll. not to the busto scale, but 9k is a huge chunk of money to just blow away. needless to say I'm beyond pissed right now and frustrated, but I really have no one to blame but myself. I feel very ashamed to post this on a public blog but I do think that I need to be honest to myself and I guess shame myself as a punishment. I talked to Brendan K and offered my 1k I promised I would give him, but he turned it down being the nice guy he is. I was debating whether to be honest and tell him about it and ship him the 1k or not, but at the end I knew I need to be honest to myself and improve. I would've insta shipped the 1k to him if he insisted. I guess right now I'm going to value money much more than I did before. I think quickly winning so much money led me to de value money as a whole. It is said that if poker players treat money like money they cannot do well and they need to treat it as chips. Very true statement but I think you still need to have a certain value for money or else you start to spew like me....
Brendan K suggested a hard stop loss rule for the day and I think that's something I will start to implement. Before I always thought yeah whatever I'll decide if I am playing well or not at that moment but I think for now, I need to have a stop loss. The stop loss will be set at 5 buy ins which is 2k. No matter how many hands I've played, no many how I lost the 2k, and no matter if I'm playing the best poker of my life and the tables is full of the biggest fishes alive, I'm going to stop. Its a principle, a rule, and one that I will follow religiously from now on until I can become much more stable about accepting losses.
so today i'm writing this entry as an honest reflection of myself and also to apologize to everyone who has looked up to my poker game. I made a mistake and I know as an instructor, my actions will be followed by many. I assure you guys that this is one action that you do not want to follow. Learn from my mistake. I'm only human so I make mistakes sometimes but I'm not afraid to admit it. If for any reasons you feel like I'm no longer the instructor you guys are looking for, feel free to tell me that and I will refund your prepaid money (if you have any) immediately no questions asked. I just think that being a teacher/instructor, I cannot be showing bad examples and I did, and I sincerely apologize
don't worry about the 9k I lost, I can swallow it. but if you read this, please either give your harshest criticism or some nice words for encouragement. and maybe a viable punishment for my stupid brain
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